Books, thoughts, ideas, and sand...

I was just walking through the library at the university which I attend. I like to sit in the quiet study area and do my homework. This area in located in the very back corner of the library, and one has to walk by multiple rows of books to get to the area.

Every time I walk through here, I can't help but think how much I LOVE libraries and the huge bookstores where you can go in and browse (and even have a cup of coffee while you peruse through the treasures discovered while mingling in the aisles). What a beautiful gift from God it is, to be able to read! I look forward to the day when I have no pressing assignments to complete...when I can casually stroll through the aisles and poke my nose into books of my own choosing.

Today, I ran up to the front of the library, where the staff has so graciously set up a coffee/tea/cookie table as a reward for the diligence of students who are studying. On my way back to the study area, I once again walked through the aisles of books, and marveled. I wondered how many books were in the university library...thousands, probably...and then I had this amazing thought: I wonder how many ideas and thoughts were contained in all of the volumes? Think about it - think about any given book. How long would it take you to identify and log each individual thought and idea in any given book? There are main thoughts and ideas, and also supporting thoughts for all of the main thoughts. And, being a university library, these are no "lightweight" thoughts. They are weighty thoughts about heavy-duty ideas. Staggering consideration!

The Holy Spirit - in His amazing ability to relate hard-to-grasp truth to a mortal man - used this moment of wonder to take an intangible truth and contextualize it in a tangible way:

Psalm 139:17-18 - How precious and weighty also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I could count them, they would be more in number than the sand. (Amplified Version)

The Holy Spirit used these books to take something intangible (thoughts) and frame them in a tangible way (printed pages full of thoughts), to put this verse into context for me. (How super-cool is that...and consider the thought that He knew exactly where I was and what I was thinking, in spite of all of the big and important things that are going on in the world...yet He cares enough about me to take the time to show me this wonderful thing...)

How many thoughts are in a book? How many books in a library? How many libraries in the world? How much time would it take to go through each and every one and add up the sum of all of the thoughts? I can't even begin to imagine the time it would take - decades, maybe lifetimes! But it would not be impossible, as long as time did not run out on the earth.

In comparison to creating a catalog of all the thoughts contained in all of the books in all of the libraries across the globe, it would be much harder to count all of the sand in the world! Yet the bible tells me that His thoughts for ME outnumber all of the sand in the world! And Jeremiah further defines these thoughts for us:

Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the thoughts and plans that I have for you, says the Lord, thoughts and plans for welfare and peace and not for evil, to give you hope in your final outcome. (Amplified Version)

All I could do is stand there and scan all of the books on the shelves I could see (and imagine the ones I couldn't see)...and consider the sum of the wonderful, hopeful thoughts that he has for me!

The next time you go into a library or one of the book superstores, I pray that you remember these words and consider how numerous and wonderful His thoughts are toward you! I'm really hoping that you are stopped dead in your tracks, as I was. I hope you will take a moment to consider all of the books on all of the shelves, and remember that the thoughts He has for you are greater than all of the thoughts in those books, combined!

PS ...To make it even more amazing, consider the fact that there are billions of people on this earth, and He has unique yet equally numerous thoughts for each and every one of us! That blows my mind! But that's another thought for another day, because now I am dreadfully behind in studying for my Psych 3100 test!

Lunchtime ponderings, over a really bad cafeteria burrito...

I was just sitting here thinking about Adam. Adam lived 900 years. That's a loooooong time! I never really thought about why God allowed Adam to live so long. I wonder how old he was when he was banished from the Garden of Eden...or how long he walked with God in the Garden before he fell. (Unfortunately, I don't have time to reference it at the moment...)

Anyway, other than Eve, Adam was the only person during his era who had ever experienced God. Because of his sin, all of the rest of the people were robbed of that opportunity. How sad that must have been. Did you ever think about how Adam felt as he looked into the faces of his descendants, knowing that because of his personal failure the fruit of his own body was robbed of having a personal experience with God? Wow...and he had to live with that reality a loooong time!

Today I read a devotional that spoke of Enoch.The devotional mentioned that Enoch was the seventh generation from Adam; which means that Adam was still alive during Enoch's lifetime. Enoch was amazing - the bible says that Enoch "was taken away so that he did not see death, and was not found, because God had taken him; for before he was taken he had this testimony, that he pleased God." (Hebrews 11:5, New King James Version). I began to wonder how it was that this man, who had no access to God, could be that close to God. I mean, this was in Genesis 5, which is before Genesis 6, in which chapter we are told the story of how the earth was so perverse that God regretted making man, and destroyed the earth with a flood! These were seriously evil times, but yet this man Enoch knew God in an incredibly intimate way. How?

I'm imagining that very likely, Enoch's understanding of God must have come from Adam. At least indirectly, from oral tradition if not personally. All humanity could be traced back to Adam, so Adam was related to everyone alive. Doesn't it stand to reason that given the patriarchal emphasis of the time, Adam would have at least some kind of influence in the earth? Wouldn't most people have at least some awareness of the fact that their forefather, Adam, walked with God in the Garden?

I wonder what kind of preacher Adam was. What kind of questions did he get about the time he walked with God in the cool of the day? Could he even describe it? How candid was he about his personal failure (aka, 'the fall of the human race')? I wonder if people searched him out to hear the stories? Were they all mad at him? What did he have to say about Cain and Abel? I know that Cain was banished, and I wonder if he had his own version of the message to preach about who his father was and who God was, and what he was like. (I digress...)


So I am throwing out an untestable hypothesis that God allowed Adam to live so long for the purpose of preaching his story to his descendants, and teaching them what God was like. There would have been no one else to tell His story. Because God is just, there had to be someone to tell His story. How could He destroy the world because of its perversion, if the world had no clue about Him? Even in the midst of a perverse world, God will have a messenger to perpetuate the truth of Who He is. Even if it means extending a man's life to 900 years, or warning a man of an impending flood and instructing him to build an ark... and the list of His methodology could go on an on.


To me, this is a testament to a couple of things: 1) God will use even those who fall the hardest and leave behind the greatest and most devastating consequences to do an expansive work for the purpose of the Kingdom; and 2) God places an incredible importance on the spreading of the message of the majesty of who He is.

And these are just thoughts from a God-lover's heart...

The Inoculation

I was watching an episode of House where boy needed a bone marrow transplant, or he would die. His brother was going to be the donor, but he had some kind of infection. Because of the infection, the brother couldn’t donate his bone marrow. The immune system of the boy with leukemia was compromised by the radiation treatments, and receiving the bone marrow with infection would have killed him. The brother’s infection needed to be destroyed by antibiotics first, and only then could he help his brother.


I saw a huge spiritual parallel in this episode.


There will come a time in your Christian walk when you will struggle. That’s just a fact. Nobody is on top of their game all of the time. If they tell you otherwise, then they are either deceiving you, deceiving themselves, or just don’t have a clue. We are called to ‘fight the good fight of faith’ (1 Timothy 6:12). If you are in a fight, you are going to take some shots. The thrill of victory or the agony of defeat both require a refilling of the spiritual tank. Our spiritual ‘immune system’ tends to run low, no matter the outcome of the battle.


There is only one way to boost your ‘spiritual immune system’: through your personal devotional time with God. Reading the Word, personal worship and prayer are the things that serve as an inoculation against depression, weariness, stagnation and vulnerability to the voice of the enemy. Why did satan wait until after Jesus had fasted for 40 days to attack Him (Luke 4)? Because he perceived Him to be at a point of weakness. (Wrong-o!). What satan didn’t realize was that during the 40 days when Jesus was denying His flesh, He was filling His spirit through prayer and worship. This is what enabled Him to stand against the wiles of the devil (Ephesians 6:11) and what enabled Him to resist him (James 4:7). The bible says that after his unsuccessful attempts, satan “[temporarily] left Him [that is, stood off from Him] until another more opportune and favorable time (Luke 4:13, Amplified).


Your enemy knows the “opportune and favorable time” to cause you to stumble. It is during these times of struggle, frustration, and stagnation. He also comes during times of emotional trauma. He will use “that little internal voice” to tear you down from the inside – those ‘thoughts’ that roll around on the inside of your head when you are alone, trying to convince you using whatever words necessary to get you to move out of your assigned place. He will use circumstances to frustrate you and try to get you to use intellect and reason to make bad decisions. Much of the time, he will use the voices of people – both Christian and non-Christian – to convince you through human wisdom or a religious spirit that you will be much better off if you listen to them. Liar, liar, LIAR! You don’t think that the enemy can use a Christian to try to deter you out of the will of God? You’ve never read Matthew 16:23 then, when Jesus said to Peter, “Get away from me, Satan! You are a dangerous trap to me. You are seeing things merely from a human point of view, not from God’s (NIV).” Even the great apostle Peter was the voice of satan to Jesus, trying to deter him out of the will of God just because things were hard. These voices are to be likened to the brother who had the infection, but wanted to try to ‘save’ the sick boy. The ‘infection’ here is being led by the flesh or soul; by human intellect or reason. When well-meaning people try to ‘heal’ you through being a ‘human wisdom’ donor, they end up infecting the ones they are trying to ‘help’. Some of them mask this human wisdom and label it as discernment or prophetic insight. BEWARE!

Much of the time, satan will make sure that someone comes along to 'vocally reinforce' the little voice in your head. Don't fall for it!

Daily relationship with God is the ONLY inoculation against such folly. Notice in Luke 4 that the Spirit led Jesus, He didn’t drive Jesus. Jesus’ responses were not based on being driven by His circumstances, but on the Word of God. Our responses should be based on the same. My pastor always says that the problem with being on the mountain top is that you think you will always be there; likewise, the problem with being in a valley is that you think you will always be there. Neither of these is true; therefore, making important life-decisions while you are on the mountain top or in the valley is a HUGE mistake! A spiritually mature person will not advise you to make a move based on your circumstances or how you feel. If someone does advise you in this way, chances are they have a personal motive that does not include what is best for you.


Be careful, little ears, what you hear. Listening to the wrong voices is spiritual suicide. Dance with the one who brought you! Don’t get caught up in your feelings or your circumstances, because they will almost always drive you out of the will of God.

This Is How It Should Be...

(NOTE: I wanted everyone to know that I'm not slacking on the blog...I'm currently in a condensed college writing class that is pretty challenging and very time consuming!)

Today I'm going to share an excerpt of an email that was sent to my daughter from the head of the organization where my daughter is completing her internship. Thanks to everyone who is supporting her while she is there. I'm very grateful that she has been able to be under the influence of this level of spiritual DNA! My comments will follow:

Thank you for praying for me while I was at Harvard Business School ... I wanted to give you a quick update on what happened. The gathering was a group of 90 leaders from major universities all over America on how leaders develop. A number of people made presentations on their theory of leadership development and then participants were allowed to comment.

During my opportunity to share I, of course, started with the self discovery of a person’s need for God. No matter what you look like on the outside, until this point you don’t even begin to become whole so you can be a leader. I showed the “I want the Cross” video clip... a just shared what happens in (our organization).

Once I was done presenting, there was glaring silence; I’m not sure they knew how to categorize what I said. Please note there were Muslims, Hindus and atheists in the room. These were some of the brightest people in America believing they can live their life without God. One of the organizers, also a Harvard professor, erupted saying, “I don’t know, I was viscerally impacted and offended by what I just experienced. While I was sitting here offended and mad, wondering why we even invited Ron to come to this conference, I am asking myself, ‘Why am I so offended?’"

Another professor jumped in saying, “Yeah, just before Ron we just saw a presentation about recruiting young people for the Barrack Obama Campaign and I was not emotionally impacted at all even through we are talking about a man who could, with the push of a button, blow up the whole world. Yet I too was offended and emotionally impacted by this last presentation.” Thus began a spirited conversation on why we would have a faith presentation in a discussion on leadership, the variety of religions in the room, and how taboo it was to even talk about religion at Harvard.

As others were making their presentation over the next 2 days, multiple references were made to that moment after I presented. Later on, the first Hindu professor came to a speaker table set up for discussion purposes and came with a number of questions. One of which was, “If we just removed the faith layer, wouldn’t everything that you do still work?” It was evident he was wrestling with his own faith and what he really believed. We tried to communicate to him that we don’t try to coerce anybody but instead of removing faith we present them with the claims of Christ, then encourage them to wrestle with those claims until the issues are settled in their heart. We also made it clear that in our opinion you cannot remove the faith layer as it is core to all we believe good leadership rests on.

As a result, (we) had a number of great conversations, starting some great friendships with people from universities all over America . We believe these interactions will lead to many of them ultimately choosing to follow Christ. When I asked one of my former professors who invited me to speak if he thought he would get fired for having me come, he said, “No. As a matter of fact, we have needed to talk about these things for a long time at Harvard. This will probably end up being the highlight of the two day conference.”

In retrospect, it did feel like I was thrown into a pit of lions for a few minutes. I was reminded of how important it is not just for us to speak the message but for us to be there, discuss, live, and embody the message. What they hear along with all the other conversations they see in our lives make the difference.


I love this man. He didn't go in there trying to get into a debate or berate anyone or anything like that. He went in and shared, with passion, the truth. Intellectuals are possibly the hardest people to affect because they are so analytical and oftentimes discount the emotional, seemingly irrational experience as a weakness. These guys were some of the greatest intellectuals in our nation!



What they experienced was the power of the Holy Spirit, making alive the truth. It was the power of God, through the 'foolishness of preaching' that affected these men and women. Not flowery words and not the wisdom or intellect of men. Not the charisma of a man, either.



This is how it should be. One man embraced a God-opportunity and penetrated the fortress of higher education. He is the Lord of Education, and He loves these men and women passionately. He loves our nation passionately, too, and wants desperately to see her turn back to Him. God bless America! God have mercy on America!



You and I may never be invited to speak to this level of leadership in our nation. But God gives us opportunities in our everyday lives to have this same level of influence in the arena where He has placed us. We can see them if we look. If we don't see them, then its because we are not in tune enough with Him to notice. That is just the truth.



God, help us to be in tune with Your voice and be willing to respond when You speak. Give us a passion for You that eclipses our passion for our own selves. It's not that You don't want to move in our nation. It's more of a case of us not being willing and ready to allow You to move us. I want to do better.



This is how it should be...

A friend loves at ALL times...

(Note: I’m sorry it’s been a long time between entries. Being the brilliant one that I am, I decided to sign up for an accelerated writing class as my first ‘real’ college class at Bowling Green State University. A sixteen week class compressed into five weeks.
Brilliant, Peg…simply brilliant.
Needless to say, it has been an adjustment. Thank you for your patience!)

I want to dedicate this entry to my best friend, Terry Webb.


A friend loves at all times, and a (sister) is born for adversity.
(Proverbs 17:17, NKJV)

Terry Webb is my best friend. I was just sitting here thinking about our friendship and trying to figure out how to describe it. I’m having a hard time. She tells people that I am one of the biggest influences on her life. I would have to say the same about you, Terry.


Merriam-Webster’s Online Dictionary (www.m-w.com) defines ‘friend’ as “one attached to another by affection or esteem; one that is not hostile; a favored companion”.


That just doesn’t seem good enough or fitting enough for me.


I met Terry about 14 years ago. She and two of her kids (Rocky and Ashlea) came to the church. I don’t remember seeing Terry that first day, but I do remember seeing Rocky and Ashlea. They were both sitting in the nursery before church started, and Rocky looked mad as mad could be about being there. I digress…


I invited Terry to come with me to a ministry conference in Michigan. You really get to know someone when you spend three days and three nights with them. What happened in Michigan, stays in Michigan! But little did I know it was the beginning of more than a friendship. It is not merely a camaraderie, but a covenantal bond that can’t be broken. She is a gift of God to me that is far beyond the ability to put a price tag upon. Terry will tell you that she feels as if she was destined to be my friend. I believe it.


There are so few examples of unconditional love in the world today. Even in the church, where it should be the norm. Terry is a case study of unconditional love. (Don’t worry – we aren’t gay! So stop it!). I truly believe that there is absolutely nothing I could do or say that would jeopardize our friendship. I am free to be me – whether I’m at my worst, or at my best. It is safe for me to have a bad day around Terry. It is safe for me to say exactly how I feel. It is safe for me to cry or pout or laugh or celebrate the good things that have happened in my life. It is safe for me to share my frustration – whether it is justified or not. It is safe for me to share my hopes, my dreams, my fears, my secrets. I know the thoughts of my heart are safe with my best friend. Even if I’m having a bad day, and being a grouch or just being stupid, she doesn’t get her nose out of joint and get all huffy about it. She just turns up the love. She asks me what’s wrong, and truly wants to know. I know it’s ok for me to be unreasonable around her, because I know that she knows my heart.


God judges persons differently than humans do. Men and women look at the face; God looks into the heart." (1 Samuel 16:7, Message Bible)


I can count on the fact that no matter what I do or say, Terry knows my heart. She has made an effort to know my heart. She remembers my heart . If I say the wrong thing or do the wrong thing, she remembers my heart. I don’t have to walk on eggshells around her. I don’t have to pick and choose the right words around her. Because she has this uncanny ability to look beyond the ‘tone’ or presence (or absence) of facial expressions or actions (or inactions) and know my heart.


I want to be like Terry in that way.


She doesn’t expect me to be something that I’m not. I’m not the frilly-willy-nilly type. She doesn’t try to make me be that way. Even though she’s a Mary Kay lady. I’m not the syrupy-sweet type. She doesn’t try to make me be like that, either. She accepts me the way that I am. She understands my strong points. She sees my weak points. But her love for me isn’t contingent on what I do. It is contingent on who I am.

It's not that we are alike, because we are very different. It's not that we agree on everything or have the same views about everything either, because we don't. Sometimes I wonder what in the world is she thinking! But that doesn't change the fact that she loves me and accepts me.

I will be the first one to admit that I have glaring weaknesses. If you want to find something to criticize me about, you don’t have to look very far. Believe me, this frustrates me FAR more than it frustrates anyone! When I’m beating myself up over my seemingly constant shortcomings, Terry is the first one to pick me up, dust me off, and tell me how valuable I am to her, and to God.


In this, Terry, you have preached the Gospel to me. You are one of the greatest preachers I know.


I have a few other friends like Terry, but not many.


It’s funny how people find it so easy to point fingers and get offended and list out other people’s faults. When all goes right, they are for you. When it's not going the greatest, then you become disposable. Why does it have to be that way?


Here is what you can expect from me: I won’t always say the right things, in the right way. I won’t always do the right things at the right time. I won’t always pick up on your hints, I won’t always see what to you may be ‘the obvious’. I’m quite sure that I will never fit the package that most people expect me to be. If you compare me with somebody else or have an idea in your mind of what you think I should be, I can guarantee you I’ll probably fall short.


But know this: if you call me, I’ll answer. If you need me, I’ll be there. If you are walking through tragedy, I won’t let you walk through it alone. I’ll pray for you. If you need it and I have it, then I’ll share it with you. If you need me to be something I’m not, then you’ll probably be disappointed. But I will say this: all that I am, and all that I can be, I’m willing to give you.



If you didn't know my heart before, you know it now.


I’ve made a decision that I’m no longer going to allow myself to be pressured to be something I’m not. I’m not going to let my heart be broken over people who can’t accept me for who I am, because those people honestly don’t love me anyway. I am who I am, in all of my imperfect glory, with all of my shortcomings, and with a HUGE heart to try to be better.


You just have to know my heart.


If that’s not good enough, then I don’t know what I can say except for it makes me sad.


As for you, Terry, thank you for being my friend, and for loving me. You have changed me and blessed me in so many ways. Thank you for being Jesus to me.

Let Him Take the Plunge, Already!!!!

Matthew 3:13-14, Amplified Bible
13Then Jesus came from Galilee to the Jordan to John to be baptized by him.

14But John protested strenuously, having in mind to prevent Him, saying, It is I who have need to be baptized by You, and do You come to me?

Jesus was getting ready to take the plunge - not just into the water, but right down in the midst of our humanity. John made a presumptuous judgment regarding what he thought Jesus, as the Son of God, should and should not be doing. But in His baptism, Jesus was partaking in the human experience. Although he thought he was honoring Jesus, John was hindering Jesus in fulfilling His mission because of wrong thinking.


We put the same kind of limitations on Jesus today, when we fail to pray and ask Him to come and take the plunge into the midst of our humanity. He is not a God who far out there and detached when it comes to the affairs of our lives. Jesus Himself tells us in Matthew 10:30 that 'the very hairs of your head are all numbered" - is THAT a picture of a God who is disinterested in us? What's so important about the hairs of our heads that He would know that number?

Holy Spirit moment: As I typed that last question, He asked me a question:

Do you know how many hairs are on your head?


Um, no……


So that just goes to show you that I am aware of the minutest details of your life that you yourself do not even know. WOW.

He is not pointing out his 'hair-counting superiority' here. Do you see what He is saying to you just now? There are issues and details and situations in our lives of which we have no knowledge as of yet. There are things deep down on the inside of us and circumstances that have not yet been brought to light. Things that we cannot even pray about because we aren't even aware of them yet! But He knows of them already! He didn't say that some of our hairs are numbered. He said ALL. There is NOTHING about our lives that does not show up in His accounting!

Nugget: If He is so in tune to us that He knows the exact number of hairs on our head and the situations in our lives that have not yet been brought to light, then how much more is He aware of the concerns and situations that live in the forefront of our minds? The ones that we SHOULD be praying about but don't, because we don't think they are important enough issues that Jesus is really concerned about?

We hesitate to pray over things that are, in our estimation, not big enough of a deal to bother God about. How presumptuous is THAT! In my opinion, knowing the exact number of hairs on my head does not seem like an important statistic for the God of the universe to be tracking! I'm thinking that the global economic crisis and war in the Middle East are a couple of topics that He should be more concerned about! Obviously, He does not feel the same way. Either I'm wrong, or He's wrong…I'm guessing that maybe I'm the one that's wrong!

So stop protesting and having a mind to prevent Jesus from being Jesus in your life because of wrong thinking. Don't be afraid to talk to God about the things in your life that are troubling you! It's not like it will be a news flash to Him, since He knows it all already. Obviously, He cares enough about you to know the intimate details…so don't stop Him from taking the plunge right into the midst of your humanity!

Conclusion...Some lessons learned from my life, Part Four

The following is the conclusion to a four-part series...I suggest you read the previous three so that this one makes sense to you. Click on "more posts" at the bottom of the page to find the older ones.


Letting Go

So, I’ve come to the place that I’m ok with Sara being off on her own…not that I don’t miss her terribly! It’s official - we miss each other, but we have made some adjustments and are learning to function in our new place of relationship! My recent missions trip to South Africa and Kenya really helped to push me over the edge (in a good way). What does the trip have to do with any of this? Plain and simple (and somewhat painful to admit): it put me in a place where my focus was no longer on myself, but was shifted onto God’s focus.


I’ve just shared with you the key to being able to let go of whatever it is that you need to let go of in your life. Shifting your focus to God’s focus. Pastor Steve used to tell me many years ago, “Don’t hold on to anything so tightly that you can’t let go of it in a moment’s notice, if God asks you to let it go.” How many things are we holding onto so tightly that we couldn’t let go of them? Material things? Relationships? Finances? Dreams? Titles? Ministries?

We have far more idols than we are willing to admit.
The bad thing is that most of the time, we don’t even realize it.

What's YOUR idol?

I had NO IDEA that so much of my identity was being “Sara’s mom”. I wasn’t even one of the obsessive moms who had to have their hands in every single thing going on. It’s not even that I didn’t understand that Sara belonged to God and I was just a steward. I understood that very well…probably better than most parents. But being a parent is so ingrained into every part of our life that it becomes like breathing: you don’t really notice it until it stops. Then panic sets in!

The same identity principle is applicable to many different areas: toxic relationships, addictions, even having a victim mentality. Many, many people seek deliverance but are unable to walk in it because of the identity crisis that ensues in their souls. If you were victimized as a child and grew up with that label, then it is really, really hard to break out of it as an adult. God can heal the wounds in your heart, but without a renewed mind that transforms “victim thinking” into “victorious thinking”, you will end up right back in the same emotional mess where you started. Even addictions are often hard to overcome because being an addict has become a part of your identity. The people you hang out with, places you go, and things you do as the result of your addiction become a part of your identity. Remove the addiction and everything that goes with it, and there goes your identity. Many people receive deliverance from the physiological part of the addiction, but just can’t renew their minds. Their focus is on their perceived loss, and not on the promises of God and the purpose of their lives in the kingdom of God.

Take a look at toxic relationships. There are people who bounce from one toxic relationship to another, because they find their identities in a relationship with the opposite sex. Women go from living with an abusive father to living with an abusive husband, many times because their identity is that of a victim of abuse. Break up with one person this week, and move in with a new one next week. Why? Many reasons, but I'm convinced that a big part of it is that the people involved don't know who they are as a single person. They cannot find their identity outside of being a 'significant other'. As a dog returns to his vomit, so a fool returns to his folly. (Proverbs 26:11, Amplified Bible)

It’s not only just the ‘negative’ things that can envelop our identities. It can be a job (that GOD gave you), a ministry (that GOD called you to), a spouse (that GOD gave you)…the list can go on and on. I think that the reason that many people fizzle out upon retirement is because they have lost the identity that their careers provided. And, on the flip side, I wonder how many people are afraid to retire because their careers have become their identity – and they don’t know who they are without it. We have all heard stories about a widow(er) who passed away shortly after their longtime spouse passed away. People like to chalk it up to grief, but I'm not so sure. I think that in many cases it's because the loss of the spouse resulted in the loss of the survivor's identity. There have also been stories of wealthy people who have taken their own lives because they lost their ‘fortune’. Their ‘fortune’ had become their identity.

Jesus dealt with a rich young ruler in Luke 18 who had asked Him what he needed to do to inherit eternal life. Jesus listed out some of the ten commandments, and the young man replied that he had kept all of them, from his youth. But then Jesus took the challenge from the ‘obedience’ level to the ‘identity level’:

22 So when Jesus heard these things, He said to him, “You still lack one thing. Sell all that you have and distribute to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, follow Me.”
23 But when he heard this, he became very sorrowful, for he was very rich.

I wonder if it wasn’t so much a money issue as it was an identity issue. His identity was wrapped up in his reputation as a wealthy man and his social status. Jesus knew that it was a heart issue for this young man. The man held onto it so tightly that he couldn’t let it go, not even to gain eternal life. But lets not be too quick to point fingers at the wealthy. Oftentimes the poor are worse than the rich when it comes to having their circumstance define their identity!

Is there anything that you are holding onto so tightly that you could not let it go in a moment’s notice, if God required it of you?

The End of the Matter

The matter at hand for me has been the process of the empty-nest syndrome. I wish I had this understanding a few years ago! I could have started to ‘wean’ myself away a little at a time. I'm not sure it is possible to NOT have a part of your identity come from being a parent. It would be very, very difficult to sow that much of yourself into something and have it NOT become a part of you. I think that just being aware of this tendency can go a long way to help you take steps to prevent it from becoming an unhealthy situation.


To be honest, I don’t have some 5-step plan that you can follow which guarantees success in this area. As I’ve stated from the beginning, every person is different and every situation is different. We all have to work it out on our own, through a relationship with Jehovah God. He promised that His Holy Spirit would teach us all things, and only He has the answers. Our job as ministers is to point the way to Him and to give biblical counsel to help you along on your life's journey.(If you need some help with this part, I can point you in the right direction! Just email me!) Even if you have made a mess of your life, it is NEVER too late! The bible says that He can make the crooked places straight!


I know these posts have been long, but I really didn't know how to make it any more concise without losing some of the story. I've really enjoyed sharing a part of my life with you! More than that, it's my prayer that the Holy Spirit has brought things to your attention in your own life, to help you to begin to renew your mind. We ALL have things in our lives that try to define our identity. We need to shift our focus off of ourselves and onto whatever it is that God's focus is upon! Let HIM define your identity!

Thanks for reading along and I hope that you come back for more! :)